My Rock

I am such a crappy wife sometimes. This is not a ploy to gather round me and make me feel better with, 'oh no your not Zo'. Yes I am. I recently had the chance to go to my 1st Ladies Retreat in So Cal with Reality Carp @ Murrieta Hot Springs. Amazing is all I gots to say! Bad English I know.
And with all the many changes in our lives last year it was truly refreshing and a calming time with Jesus. I listened. And listened. And listened. And it's so interesting that when I listen and Shut up to my Jesus I hear from Him. He spoke to me about many things and one of which was my husband. The enemy has had his way with us for too long now. And I was filled with the Holy Spirit to rebuke that and give our marriage over to Jesus like He so desires for us. I take my husband for granted. He has put up with my spiteful attitude toward him and my life for too long. I give off a bad vibe to him when all the while my heart is screaming, 'Why don't you want to love me?" or " Why don't you want to spend time with me?" Well who the heck would as rude as I can be. No wonder.This is just a way for me to blame him in some way.
The truth of the matter is, I love him. More than anything, well maybe he comes a close second to Jesus, but you get the picture. I don't want to waste anymore time with him. Or my girls. Plus I have been reading my bible more than ever and being pumped by the word and this great book my girlfriend, Lindz gave me. That I want to say I HATE to LOVE.It's just a great way to give glory to God and not succumb to all what the enemy wants to take you down with.
It's a new year and with the whirlwind that was left in 07 and the new fresh life Jesus has for me this year I am ready. I am tired of being such a baby about it!

P.s. all that to say, I love Sam just like the rock. And be Thankful to the Lord for giving me such a tangible example of God's commitment to me. Sam shows me that through all my 'Stuff'.