A long time coming

Just yesterday I had an amazing convo with a good friend of mine who I don't get the chace to talk to often but it was so special.

This friend shall remain nameless but our talk was about what I am being taught out here in AZ. And what I want so badly to take with me home.

God must think I have a great sense of humor sometimes with all the different things I have rolled with in life. Some 'rolls' better than others to be honest. I throw my fits, stomp my feet, ect..ect.. claiming no perfection in the ways I do things. But the one thing I have been shown from my sweet Jesus is just how lucky and blessed he has made me in the friend department. I so much enjoy and thrive off all of the different and eclectic people I have been surrounded with and CHOSE to be in touch with as well.It's like the family I got to pick! I recognize that each one posesses something that has enriched my life so much.God has really kept my heart so compassionate twards people and giving me such a judgment free kind of love for them that really isn't my own. Which has helped so much within my own personal family.

And I was trying to remmmeber what I specifically said to this friend of mine because it was what I was trying to convey to her and what I was so greatful for and I can't remmmeber a stinkin thing now! Duhh!? But maybe good because God had it so well put off my mouth yesterday that I can take that to the bank that it was just for that moment and of God himself and not me.
That convo, nothing else, you know!

I just feel like Arizona has treated me very well, all the while I had been thinking I came out here first..kicking and screaming like a baby. Now I at some point let go and let God change my naughty heart and attitude problem and He is now revealing to me the blessing in that simple task on my part.

And finally there is one specific woman who will remain nameless too.. but has forever shown me that she truly has been transformed into a vessel of Jesus. From the moment I was introduced to her , her compassion and love for me has remained the same through all my ups and downs. She didn't even know me and I felt loved.Thats a gift. No judgement, no solicted 'christianize advice'. And when we speak and see eachother, I feel like it's me, her, and Jesus! Seriously.

I just am in a moment of gratitude for my family and what I have learned from them and continue to learn. SO grateful for what I have seen, maybe too young but I am no longer ashamed of my past, it does not dictate my future, or embarassed of my family, I have an amazing family. They aren't your run of the mill, but really who's is right? lol

Just wanted to share God keeping your girl over here in awe, like when was the last time God awed you? He is right now for me and I am enjoying every flippin minute.... Have a fanntastic day All!

xoxo Zo