Home Sweet Home

So Sam and I have been talking, discussing, whatever you want to call it, about moving to Monterey or staying here. Which is home sweet home? Hard decisions. We have called AZ our home for almost 4 years now and I have to say it has been good to us. I have made amazing friendships, we have raised our girls here, watched them grow, established our marriage here it seems and now leaving that seems hard and harder to swallow. I never thought it would be a difficult choice to make being that all we ever wanted was to be back 'home'. But my vision of home has changed. I feel safe here for some reason. With all that I went through personally back at home before leaving, it was a nice goodbye. Of course I miss some friends and family and the area period but some much has changed back home. The church being such a major part of that it's like I feel almost cheated to go back. Poor guidance, poor leadership still stands in the way for me to fall back into a so-callled 'christian fog'. I have been a christian for a little over 5 years now and have learned alot, met valuable people who have helped shaped my little life, not many have been from where it all started. I do not want to be in a rut. I wanted valuable realationship and I value mine. It sucks to come to this conclusion about home. Which home, our old home now. With all that said, I just pray whatever we end up decideing it will be a God driving desire for myself to be strong in my faith, 'know real truth' and not someones opinion and surround myself with all kinds. Raise my girls in a loving home, teach them about God, 'Be-friend' my husband, have long deserved family time and be with my family. That makes a home sweet. Have a good day ya'll.